"If it is to be, it is up to me"

The deluge of knowledge finds new paths every day. You stumble upon new facts, ideas, and even entire systems of education that you've never knew existed. It's these small leads that unfold into big breakthroughs that I seek. Some pinhole that eventually evolves into a gorge. You have to constantly change with this knowledge; allowing it to shape and be shaped by your perspective.
I have a professor who constantly questions why we are not more ardent beings. He constantly challenges us, almost mockingly, to "save our generation." It's an idea that has been nagging American culture for ages. The prostration of our passions has caused us to become stagnant in the face of a gyroscopic society. There is something bigger out there in the ether waiting to be designed, formed, and learned by all of us. The collection of these creations will shape not only our future, but our place in a history that is in dire need of something favorable.
This all falls under the notion of how we design our surroundings. I have developed a conflagrant desire to use this all encompassing knowledge for an amelioration of not only my local surroundings, but for it to spread like the aforementioned pinhole. There is something in all of us to produce better mediums for everyone. I don't want this to be misconstrued as some socialist drivel; I have no desire to promote such a sentiment.
Having found myself in a situation I could not have foreseen, or maybe I was too guileless to want to believe was possible, I have decided to dedicate myself to the notions I have mentioned above. This idea of squeezing every last drop from life has become a new cynosure of my abilities and fervor. Whatever becomes of my life, it is because I shaped it myself. There are myriad encumbrances that must be dealt with in our lifetimes. We can either use them or be decimated by them until we no longer feel in control. I hope none of us ever lose that control.